My husband and I struggled with infertility for several years and after spending thousands of dollars trying to become (and stay) pregnant, over those years, we felt God leading us toward the adoption journey. We left one treacherous road and began traveling down another.
We pursued adoption through Christian agencies and foster to adopt. The weeks and months continued to pile up. We had our hearts broke through foster care, nothing was happening with the agencies and we felt lost. We didn't know what to do.
Then, one night out of no where, we were approached about a private adoption. We spent much time in prayer and felt God lead us towards pursuing this adoption.
We were so excited...and scared. We kept our guard up, for the "just in case" scenario. We were there when we found out we were, all three, having a girl. We picked a name and started decorating the nursery. Sadly, at 7 & 1/2 months the "just in case" scenario happened...the Birth mother changed her mind. Our hearts were crushed.
A few weeks later, while sitting in church, God began to speak to me. He was calling me to write a devotional book to help other "Mother's In Waiting". I argued with him back and forth for a while. (Why do we think we can win?!) I was explaining to God that I was simply not qualified! He reminded me he needed availability and HE would provide the ability.
I submitted and said, Ok God, when I have a child of my own, a few years down the road, I will write the book. He said, No, now.
Honestly, I was a frustrated and hurt that He was asking me to do this at the darkest time of my life. God, why now?! I need someone to help me right now! I don't have it in me to encourage others at this time in my life.
He spoke, again, to my spirit and said, Now! Now, while you are in the midst of the pain and darkness. Now, while the emotions are fresh. Right now, while you will be able to better relate and communicate with the other Mothers In Waiting. We continued to "argue" and as always, He won! :-)
I jumped on board and started writing the next day. Well, it wasn't me writing. It was all God. I simply held the pen while He did the writing.
This book has been a total blessing. Not just for the readers...but mostly for me. I didn't know it at the time, but God used the writing of this book to heal my broken heart. The writing had so much healing catharsis for me. It was extremely painful to write, but God used it as a release for me.
What felt like my curse of being able to have a child of my own, has now turned into my calling. I have been able to encourage, minister to, and simply talk to women, struggling with the wait, all over the United States.
To those who are feeling a ministry come out of your wait...be obedient! God is looking for Availability NOT Ability! He will provide what is needed for the calling. He knows the plans He has for you. Trust Him!
To all the Mother's In Waiting, Don't Give Up!! God is faithful to keep His promises! It's worth the wait! He will be with you EVERY step of the way. He will never leave you, nor forsake you.
I pray you will look into this devotional book for Encouragement and Hope. Not because my name is on the cover, but because God wrote this book!
**The little girl we were adopting was due on May 8th 2016--Mother's Day. That was an exceptionally hard day. You know what? This Mother's Day, I celebrated with my perfect 9 week old son.
God had a purpose for that failed adoption and the heartache that came along with it. We just have to trust His plan.
Had we adopted that baby girl, I wouldn't have this adorable, squirmy baby boy in my arms right now, as I type this.
Be encouraged! Don't give up! Keep the faith! God knows what He is doing! I'm praying for you...sweet Mother's In Waiting.
Luke1:45 "Blessed is she who believed that the Lord would fulfill His promises to her."
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“However motherhood comes to you, it’s a miracle.” Valerie Harper